Sweetness Is Here: January 1, 2020
Sweetness is here, kissing at all things in me broken or confused... This mantra I created when I was sad is strangely useful to my heart in this time of sadness and change. And hope. I have so many emotions in my body and soul right now and I’ve been doing my best to feel them and witness them and have compassion for myself. This new year starts bittersweet but still sweet. My whole life I’ve known sadness and disappointment but have tried to find sweetness in my pain, like my black and queer ancestors. That practice is serving me today, taking it moment to moment. Being grateful even though I’m sad. Starting the new decade with being fiercely tender and spiritually connected, crying with and holding my wifey and giving thanks for our life. Wishing everyone meditations in sweetness as the decade blossoms open with limitlessness. It ain’t easy in these streets, y’all.
— Junauda
I hold my womb and listen for the songs my pussy got on its heart.
My healing process felt like dying and being reborn, going into night in prayer and needles in your body and coming out with scars and a blinding sense of personal clarity. I literally felt like a baby, having to receive care from all of my beloveds and struggle to do simple things. I had to stop everything and be slow and be with my existence. I was being waterfalled in love and learning how to center in my worthiness of it. I was given deliciousness and softness for my healing.
Saturated in Black futures and histories!
Just got back from Cameroon last week and feel saturated in Black futures and histories. This was my third time in Cameroon and the continent and my mom’s first, and the layers of ancestral singing and listening were vibrant in us all. I love Ngowo’s homeland and I swear her dimple deepens when she smiles on this soil.
A sacred, sensual, radical and a limitless quest of my heart
I’ve been called to connect with the ancestors on my fathers side in St. Croix. It’s complicated y’all, since my father is a complex dude in my life, still my ancestors wanted me to know them and im grateful! It has been a sacred, sensual, radical and a limitless quest of my heart.
Aries energy is an energy of beginnings and clarity of self.
Aries energy is an energy of beginnings and clarity of self. It is weird starting spring and being in the house all of the time. More specifically, being afraid to leave the house. Living through a pandemic in a world that doesn’t center around life, the healing wisdoms of nature rhythms or natural law is complicated and hard not to be afraid.
I’m up in the house, pulling a lot of tarot cards.
So one of these tarot cards I kept pulling, was the 8 of wands. It’s all about movement, very Sagittarius vibe. It’s about doing something out your comfort zone, and doing thangs with a sense of adventure and boldness and less about perfection. And, like I said I’m in the house cause of this pandemic. And for MONTHS I have promised myself that I would be out here blogging and I never did because I was busy running these streets!
Sweetness is here.
Sweetness is here, kissing at all things in me broken or confused... this mantra I created when I was sad is strangely useful to my heart in this time of sadness and change. And hope. I have so many emotions in my body and soul right now and I’ve been doing my best to feel them and witness them and have compassion for myself. This new year starts bittersweet but still sweet.